winter break

winter break is coming to an end. it's sunday and tomorrow, monday, i'm back to school. or hell, which ever name you prefer. i guess this break was alright. i found out who some real friends are, and who i should stay away from. i made a choice i hope to stick with. i made a new best friend i hope to keep. and i thought over a lot of things and a lot of choices i have made. i've been thinking about where i want to go in life a lot. i guess i've had way too much time on my hands, but from here on out my goals are to try harder in school, quit drugs and alcohol, be real, be the kind of friend i would want to have and to talk about my problems. i know it's going to be hard. but i want to turn my life around. i'm not sure if it's ALL my fault i ended up where i am today, but i know i could have stopped it somewhere along the way. i want the respect back i used to have for myself. and i want respect from others. i'm changing. today. deal or ditch.